A LOVE CRUSADE
Akash
Blogging in presence of Samba...Read@your_own_risk

"what if-----
SSSSscchhhh tires screeching; engines rumbling....
Batmobile stopping in front of _______. And thus dies Harvey dent instead of ____.
This titillates us, alongside, the confusion begins too...now that the heroine has already proposed to both, will she be in relationship with batman??? what would the joker then do??" etc....

"WHAT IF" is much bewildering, moreover, in practical life causing our present
to fly away in a flash.

Now somewhere someone like us, say in IITH itself

"what if-----
7th sem, this what we all have got..... Having been done with 3/4th of our engineering career, its time to intervene what to do next. 
The confusion then begins...Will it be taking up a job?  Going abroad for MS or Is it time to step into IIM? or will it be better to become an Entrepreneur?(Its as difficult as its spelt). There, you have the three boats and you being the sailor, need to decide which one will lead you to your destiny.

Success and Happiness is what a human aspires in his life and one of these boats will make you fetch that when you reach the other side of the river, BUT which boat is it you should step into?
Difficult, hunh ? In fact, the decision making is also bound to many circumstances and conditions. All these double bounds are 'coz of more availability of options.

Now some of us might have excelled this perplexity choosing either of the boats, but still you might not be contented with that. Every person must have tried his own deciding algorithm before opting for one.
I am sure you might have stormed yourself with many Q&A's. 
"will you enjoy your future life to the same extent?? what about your financials ??? will your social life change???? would your GF be still the same???"
We have our own PRIORITIES which pacify us over a period of time. So, its in your hands and you are ought to face it as absconding from it is not a choice you have.

Don't fear that you might take/have taken a wrong decision. Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong, my friends. Even a stopped clock is right twice a day. If we want to start learning ballet, we’d be considered too old. We are now matured enough to arbitrate whether to take the road not taken or to choose the other. We need to slowly venture out of the cocoon of the ordinary and start exploring the realm of extraordinary.

Disappointment, defeat,and despair are the tools God uses to show us the way. The search for God is a Dark Night, that Faith is a Dark Night. And that’s hardly a surprise really, because for us each day is a dark night. None of us knows what might happen even in the next minute, and yet still we go forward. Because
we trust. Because we have Faith. "FAITH". Yes, this is the only force which baits us.

If you are stuck with CFD, then you must opt for FEM. "Confusion, Frustration and Disappointment" needs to be replaced with "Fortitude, Enthusiasm and Madness" to achieve something.

Good Luck !!!

Akash
Finally, a proverb learnt in std 8th turned out to be useful.No doubt IIT's has produced some of the greatest minds of the world and there are LAKH's of aspirants who desire to get into the old iit's but I am sure they will be compelled to think about the new iit's too after spending 5 minutes reading this blog. For people who think there are only 7 IITs will be surprised to know the figure has changed to 15. Out of all these 15 institutions, the only place where u can live like a BOSS is IITH. I have no idea about the other new ones but forget about your comfortable stay in any of the old iits. I don't deny the fact, they are a long way ahead in terms of rankings, placements, fests and many other aspects but is it good enough to sacrifice a sweet,  comfort and auspicious stay of 4 years of your life in return of all these things ? Just think how will you feel while departing from your college after 4 years being strangers for some of your batchmates with whom u sat in the same classroom for the last 4 yrs. Just imagine how u r gonna feel while hugging and congratulating each other without even knowing each others names.

The stay in IITB last summer with 4 of my friends encouraged me to share some of the issues and challenges in our old iits which were never cared or taken into account to be solved. First and foremost, the rooms, Albin's words trigger my mind at times. He used to say we can play football in our rooms in IITH. In contrast, the rooms in IITB, as soon as as u step down from the bed u r out of the room, such big they were :P. Forget about the cleanliness and hygiene. The faculty in charge of the summer project Miss SOlanki was no better than any other govt. officilas we usually see in movies. She was good for nothing. On the other hand, the staff members here (except a few) in IITH are so kind and caring that we can hardly find anywhere else.Infact, it will take u days to find the director's room there whereas here we passby our director's room 4-5 times everyday. Its like your ID IS MORE VALUABLE THAN UR FACE no matter who u r, a prof, a student, a staff or a guest.On the contrary, hardly anyone asks us to show our ID's here,unnecessarily it will be stuck in our rear pocket under few newtons of tensile force for no use. Any work worth only 2 mins will take days there, most of the time usually spent in finding the place and the corresponding person in charge. Let me share, there was a problem with our draft, we went to 5 people one recommending the other and finally, we were asked to contact, the good for nothing, Solanki whom we met first and still the problem was left unsolved. Not only in movies, in real life too these things do happen. साले चप्पल की mb एक हो गयी  . Our prof SG Singh asked us to keep an instrument worth 1 LAKH with us, and in turn, our guide in IITB was too afraid to allow us access to use a simple thermocouple.

Hardly i can remember any pros but still there are lots of cons roaming in my minds. Well there are very few things which you can adore finally. I was spell bound by the greenery and the elegance of the surrounding nature keeping the climate cool and calm in IITB. The canteens where we spent most of our time and not to forget some good looking chicks.
The funsome sunday, boatride and the two parties are some of the momeires we can cherish experincing the true depths of enjoyment.It turned out to be a lot better than expected.

Our sweet home IITH being sparsely populated with all resources and needs has kept all of us like a family and  I see IITH growing at a much accelerated pace. It would soon establish its own identity among the various renowned institutes of the nation and the world.
I must proudly say, we IITans are just having the best days of our life and IITH added a sweet smelling essence to it.
Akash
Well, peeping into other's diaries is unacceptable, but sometimes its good for others 'coz u don't want them to repeat the mistakes that one has done already.I found something in Nirav's diary that kept my eyes wide open for a few minutes. Here are his words.......

The Three Musketeers I am going to mention here are not those whom we saw in Slumdog Millionaire....
The clock said 4:14 a.m./22nd May. :( Red tears falling from the eyes of Nirav one night with a phone in his hand showing (calling....Crystal aka Sef). Wait!Wait!Wait!....Did I tell red tears? Of course, yes, but they are colorless, right? Tears in the form of blood full of love and sacrifice.Sounds strange na.... I know.
Well, social networking sites are found to be boring and worthless for some, but believe me or not, when I went to the full conversation page, it said 'Loading Earlier Messages.....(7308).' Chatting for 3-4 hours daily gradually developed a close relationship between us and the bond kept on strengthening as days past. Messages full of love, emotions, personal life, anger, fights and many more kept on coming from both sides.  Waking up in the morning with a heart full of love and sleeping in the night with a heart full of happiness became their routine.3 months past.......4 months.....6 months........................................

But you might be wondering, where the hell is the third musketeer? Here he comes....One fine day, she said,
Sef-"I'm more worried now a days...."
Nirav-"Why? Any problem?"
Sef-"I'm scared to lose him. I can't live without him."
Nirav-"Who? Do you love someone?"
Sef-"Yes.........i love Prince".(aka Sutta (Lucky Guy)....appropriate name i could find for him)

I said to myself:"WTF!!!!......Oh My GOD!!!!!!". Tears fell from my eyes(it was not red this time though). Everything felt quiet as if there was nothing left for me in this damn world.....It was very hard for me to believe this, yet I din't lose my hope and still continued the mission to get her as my life partner.Days past...Months....She shared all her experiences, relationship and in fact, every second she had with Prince.

22nd May/2:23 a.m...... I can't share all those things which happened that day because it will be cumbersome and it will be too long, but here are some of the chats......
Sef-"Are you okay?"
Nirav-"Does it look like I'm okay? Do u think anything has changed in the last 1 year in between us?"
Sef-"Yes, you have changed a lot....You are far different than you used to be.You like talking with me and      fighthing too..... :P"
Nirav-"Whom to listen? Heart or Mind..... I'm confused. What to do?.....Try to understand what's going on in me,Sef."
Sef-"Well, I suggest you to listen to your heart because it never lies.It is always correct.I think you are nice....in fact you are a very good person.You have a good heart and why are you calling me 'Sef' all of a sudden (Girls are sharp eyed, isn't it?)"
Nirav-"uuuuuuu!!!!!!Try to understand,Sef.........Damn it!!!!! You dumb girl.....fuuuuuuuu!!!!"
Sef-"Tell me exactly what you want to say? Are you okay? Are you feeling somewhat bad?"
Nirav-"Akela(lonely)..........(the only word I could thought of)"
Sef-"Why?" (both of us stayed silent for a while and then she wrote) Do you love someone? Who is she?"
Nirav-"The one who should understand this is dumb......You dumbo!!!.......I LOVE YOU!!! (finally, I puked it.I regreted a lot after telling her since I know she loves Sutta, but.......)"
Sef-"Hunh!!!(the 1st reaction from her as expected)....What?????...Acha..........Now I understand. You did the right thing listening to your heart otherwise you would have regretted all your life if you would have never told me about your feelings.
Nirav-"I like you but my heart loves you.......That's why I asked whom to listen (heart/mind)?"
Sef-" But, I am sorry, I'm just sad that I can't say yes to you and you know why......I have told everything to you about me and Prince, but I like you."

I kept silent for a long time......I had nothing to say after that.............Then she called me by name for the first time since a year..........Ouch !!!! That was awesome..

UUUUffffffff!!!!!!!.....It was like......I can't explain and of course, the tears were red this time.Although, I knew what was going to happen and I was aware of it, it did hurt me a lot. Few days were very difficult for me to pass.I tried a lot to stop chatting, but everything went in vain. Even now, we chat with each other, but I am lost somewhere searching for her. It seems as if two human beings are talking to each other without any feelings like ROBOTS.
Even after my stupidity and cheap behaviour towards her, she tried a lot to convince me more than she actually could, saying all Crap things which I don't bother about like,"I am so lucky not to have her, in  fact Prince is very much unlucky who has to tolerate her a lot for rest of his life." She is trying to console me, saying to have faith in God and that I will get a far better girl than her in my life, blah blah blah............... Dude, is she fucking kidding me? Why should I care and bother for all these things? The only thing that I know is her heart, which is pure and crystal clear shining like a diamond and I am damn bullshit creeper on this earth who lost it.I wish I was the one who should have proposed her before Prince did. chehh....!!!!!!

Lots of questions now left unanswered-"How can she have such a sweet heart that she is still trying to help me out after all these matters ?"......"How could she ignore all the mistakes i did ?"......"Why the hell I did not propose to her before Prince did ?"....."How come she still wants to be my friend and chat with me daily as we used to ?"......and more importantly "How can i forget her ?" Such a sweet little heart is very difficult to find in this world.........and of course, I will miss the commonly used words in our chats (cheapo, dumbo, fat head, pagli, bhutni, and many more). "
This is what I found in Nirav's Diary that day.

                    ...............BHOLI SI SURAT wale to bahut milte hain.....par ANKHON MEIN MASTI aur DOOR KHADI SARMANE wale sayad hi kabhi milte hain..............