Well, peeping into other's diaries is unacceptable, but sometimes its good for others 'coz u don't want them to repeat the mistakes that one has done already.I found something in Nirav's diary that kept my eyes wide open for a few minutes. Here are his words.......
" The Three Musketeers I am going to mention here are not those whom we saw in Slumdog Millionaire....
The clock said 4:14 a.m./22nd May. :( Red tears falling from the eyes of Nirav one night with a phone in his hand showing (calling....Crystal aka Sef). Wait!Wait!Wait!....Did I tell red tears? Of course, yes, but they are colorless, right? Tears in the form of blood full of love and sacrifice.Sounds strange na.... I know.
Well, social networking sites are found to be boring and worthless for some, but believe me or not, when I went to the full conversation page, it said 'Loading Earlier Messages.....(7308).' Chatting for 3-4 hours daily gradually developed a close relationship between us and the bond kept on strengthening as days past. Messages full of love, emotions, personal life, anger, fights and many more kept on coming from both sides. Waking up in the morning with a heart full of love and sleeping in the night with a heart full of happiness became their routine.3 months past.......4 months.....6 months........................................
But you might be wondering, where the hell is the third musketeer? Here he comes....One fine day, she said,
Sef-"I'm more worried now a days...."
Nirav-"Why? Any problem?"
Sef-"I'm scared to lose him. I can't live without him."
Nirav-"Who? Do you love someone?"
Sef-"Yes.........i love Prince".(aka Sutta (Lucky Guy)....appropriate name i could find for him)
I said to myself:"WTF!!!!......Oh My GOD!!!!!!". Tears fell from my eyes(it was not red this time though). Everything felt quiet as if there was nothing left for me in this damn world.....It was very hard for me to believe this, yet I din't lose my hope and still continued the mission to get her as my life partner.Days past...Months....She shared all her experiences, relationship and in fact, every second she had with Prince.
22nd May/2:23 a.m...... I can't share all those things which happened that day because it will be cumbersome and it will be too long, but here are some of the chats......
Sef-"Are you okay?"
Nirav-"Does it look like I'm okay? Do u think anything has changed in the last 1 year in between us?"
Sef-"Yes, you have changed a lot....You are far different than you used to be.You like talking with me and fighthing too..... :P"
Nirav-"Whom to listen? Heart or Mind..... I'm confused. What to do?.....Try to understand what's going on in me,Sef."
Sef-"Well, I suggest you to listen to your heart because it never lies.It is always correct.I think you are nice....in fact you are a very good person.You have a good heart and why are you calling me 'Sef' all of a sudden (Girls are sharp eyed, isn't it?)"
Nirav-"uuuuuuu!!!!!!Try to understand,Sef.........Damn it!!!!! You dumb girl.....fuuuuuuuu!!!!"
Sef-"Tell me exactly what you want to say? Are you okay? Are you feeling somewhat bad?"
Nirav-"Akela(lonely)..........(the only word I could thought of)"
Sef-"Why?" (both of us stayed silent for a while and then she wrote) Do you love someone? Who is she?"
Nirav-"The one who should understand this is dumb......You dumbo!!!.......I LOVE YOU!!! (finally, I puked it.I regreted a lot after telling her since I know she loves Sutta, but.......)"
Sef-"Hunh!!!(the 1st reaction from her as expected)....What?????...Acha..........Now I understand. You did the right thing listening to your heart otherwise you would have regretted all your life if you would have never told me about your feelings.
Nirav-"I like you but my heart loves you.......That's why I asked whom to listen (heart/mind)?"
Sef-" But, I am sorry, I'm just sad that I can't say yes to you and you know why......I have told everything to you about me and Prince, but I like you."
I kept silent for a long time......I had nothing to say after that.............Then she called me by name for the first time since a year..........Ouch !!!! That was awesome..
UUUUffffffff!!!!!!!.....It was like......I can't explain and of course, the tears were red this time.Although, I knew what was going to happen and I was aware of it, it did hurt me a lot. Few days were very difficult for me to pass.I tried a lot to stop chatting, but everything went in vain. Even now, we chat with each other, but I am lost somewhere searching for her. It seems as if two human beings are talking to each other without any feelings like ROBOTS.
Even after my stupidity and cheap behaviour towards her, she tried a lot to convince me more than she actually could, saying all Crap things which I don't bother about like,"I am so lucky not to have her, in fact Prince is very much unlucky who has to tolerate her a lot for rest of his life." She is trying to console me, saying to have faith in God and that I will get a far better girl than her in my life, blah blah blah............... Dude, is she fucking kidding me? Why should I care and bother for all these things? The only thing that I know is her heart, which is pure and crystal clear shining like a diamond and I am damn bullshit creeper on this earth who lost it.I wish I was the one who should have proposed her before Prince did. chehh....!!!!!!
Lots of questions now left unanswered-"How can she have such a sweet heart that she is still trying to help me out after all these matters ?"......"How could she ignore all the mistakes i did ?"......"Why the hell I did not propose to her before Prince did ?"....."How come she still wants to be my friend and chat with me daily as we used to ?"......and more importantly "How can i forget her ?" Such a sweet little heart is very difficult to find in this world.........and of course, I will miss the commonly used words in our chats (cheapo, dumbo, fat head, pagli, bhutni, and many more). "
This is what I found in Nirav's Diary that day.
...............BHOLI SI SURAT wale to bahut milte hain.....par ANKHON MEIN MASTI aur DOOR KHADI SARMANE wale sayad hi kabhi milte hain..............
" The Three Musketeers I am going to mention here are not those whom we saw in Slumdog Millionaire....
The clock said 4:14 a.m./22nd May. :( Red tears falling from the eyes of Nirav one night with a phone in his hand showing (calling....Crystal aka Sef). Wait!Wait!Wait!....Did I tell red tears? Of course, yes, but they are colorless, right? Tears in the form of blood full of love and sacrifice.Sounds strange na.... I know.
Well, social networking sites are found to be boring and worthless for some, but believe me or not, when I went to the full conversation page, it said 'Loading Earlier Messages.....(7308).' Chatting for 3-4 hours daily gradually developed a close relationship between us and the bond kept on strengthening as days past. Messages full of love, emotions, personal life, anger, fights and many more kept on coming from both sides. Waking up in the morning with a heart full of love and sleeping in the night with a heart full of happiness became their routine.3 months past.......4 months.....6 months........................................
But you might be wondering, where the hell is the third musketeer? Here he comes....One fine day, she said,
Sef-"I'm more worried now a days...."
Nirav-"Why? Any problem?"
Sef-"I'm scared to lose him. I can't live without him."
Nirav-"Who? Do you love someone?"
Sef-"Yes.........i love Prince".(aka Sutta (Lucky Guy)....appropriate name i could find for him)
I said to myself:"WTF!!!!......Oh My GOD!!!!!!". Tears fell from my eyes(it was not red this time though). Everything felt quiet as if there was nothing left for me in this damn world.....It was very hard for me to believe this, yet I din't lose my hope and still continued the mission to get her as my life partner.Days past...Months....She shared all her experiences, relationship and in fact, every second she had with Prince.
22nd May/2:23 a.m...... I can't share all those things which happened that day because it will be cumbersome and it will be too long, but here are some of the chats......
Sef-"Are you okay?"
Nirav-"Does it look like I'm okay? Do u think anything has changed in the last 1 year in between us?"
Sef-"Yes, you have changed a lot....You are far different than you used to be.You like talking with me and fighthing too..... :P"
Nirav-"Whom to listen? Heart or Mind..... I'm confused. What to do?.....Try to understand what's going on in me,Sef."
Sef-"Well, I suggest you to listen to your heart because it never lies.It is always correct.I think you are nice....in fact you are a very good person.You have a good heart and why are you calling me 'Sef' all of a sudden (Girls are sharp eyed, isn't it?)"
Nirav-"uuuuuuu!!!!!!Try to understand,Sef.........Damn it!!!!! You dumb girl.....fuuuuuuuu!!!!"
Sef-"Tell me exactly what you want to say? Are you okay? Are you feeling somewhat bad?"
Nirav-"Akela(lonely)..........(the only word I could thought of)"
Sef-"Why?" (both of us stayed silent for a while and then she wrote) Do you love someone? Who is she?"
Nirav-"The one who should understand this is dumb......You dumbo!!!.......I LOVE YOU!!! (finally, I puked it.I regreted a lot after telling her since I know she loves Sutta, but.......)"
Sef-"Hunh!!!(the 1st reaction from her as expected)....What?????...Acha..........Now I understand. You did the right thing listening to your heart otherwise you would have regretted all your life if you would have never told me about your feelings.
Nirav-"I like you but my heart loves you.......That's why I asked whom to listen (heart/mind)?"
Sef-" But, I am sorry, I'm just sad that I can't say yes to you and you know why......I have told everything to you about me and Prince, but I like you."
I kept silent for a long time......I had nothing to say after that.............Then she called me by name for the first time since a year..........Ouch !!!! That was awesome..
UUUUffffffff!!!!!!!.....It was like......I can't explain and of course, the tears were red this time.Although, I knew what was going to happen and I was aware of it, it did hurt me a lot. Few days were very difficult for me to pass.I tried a lot to stop chatting, but everything went in vain. Even now, we chat with each other, but I am lost somewhere searching for her. It seems as if two human beings are talking to each other without any feelings like ROBOTS.
Even after my stupidity and cheap behaviour towards her, she tried a lot to convince me more than she actually could, saying all Crap things which I don't bother about like,"I am so lucky not to have her, in fact Prince is very much unlucky who has to tolerate her a lot for rest of his life." She is trying to console me, saying to have faith in God and that I will get a far better girl than her in my life, blah blah blah............... Dude, is she fucking kidding me? Why should I care and bother for all these things? The only thing that I know is her heart, which is pure and crystal clear shining like a diamond and I am damn bullshit creeper on this earth who lost it.I wish I was the one who should have proposed her before Prince did. chehh....!!!!!!
Lots of questions now left unanswered-"How can she have such a sweet heart that she is still trying to help me out after all these matters ?"......"How could she ignore all the mistakes i did ?"......"Why the hell I did not propose to her before Prince did ?"....."How come she still wants to be my friend and chat with me daily as we used to ?"......and more importantly "How can i forget her ?" Such a sweet little heart is very difficult to find in this world.........and of course, I will miss the commonly used words in our chats (cheapo, dumbo, fat head, pagli, bhutni, and many more). "
This is what I found in Nirav's Diary that day.
...............BHOLI SI SURAT wale to bahut milte hain.....par ANKHON MEIN MASTI aur DOOR KHADI SARMANE wale sayad hi kabhi milte hain..............
